I don't know if I could explain what is on my heart and have you understand. It's heavy though, and it's making me tired. And it wouldn't be so bad - except that a majority of the people I'm with either have it or are soon getting it or are just generally talking about it . . . Brilliant - no joke, there was just a commercial about it on the radio.
This thing - it's something I really, really, desire. In fact, I would postpone my current dreams to have this one. I wouldn't be throwing away schooling by any means, just setting it aside for a little longer. And this desire is something I'm designed for.
Nellie just got married and she is due in August - and she is absolutely adorable. Maybe it's a little creepy . . . but every time she rubs her stomach or talks to the baby it breaks my heart a little.
Emily's wedding is just over a month away. Melissa's is in December. Meaghan's is in a year. And it's probably suicide but I'm in/helping with all three. I've borrowed too many books to count from the library - and gosh, if there is anything you'd like to know about a wedding just ask me.
There have been three sermons since I've been home about parenting and family . . . and it is hard to miss all the families in our church! There are a bajillion little kids running around - swinging in their daddies arms and tugging on their mommies' hands.
Anyway - life is good, just really busy. I'm working 7 days a week - which actually has been going fine. I'm really tired today though, and I'd really like a mug of hot chocolate and a nap on the couch in Winters. And I would like some logical explanation for the tears that are welling in my eyes. Why do I feel like this when I have absolutely nothing to complain about? I don't know how to learn the lesson of contentment . . . even after years of trying . . . that's all . . .
I was designed for the home - but I'm afraid I'll never get one of my own - instead I'll just have the blessing of teaching others about it.