"Don't be so hard on yourself..."
"That's the thing...I'm the oldest and in grad school, I need to start being responsible."
It's almost two on Sunday afternoon and what have I accomplished this weekend? Nothing school related! oh wait, I made my to-do-list... It's my last week of classes, we start full-time teaching next week, and I'm overwhelmed with what I have to get done.
I'm in a funk. I'm not the person I want to be, but I don't know how to be that person at this point. I can't help looking back at what seemed like such a small decision and how the choice Whitney and I made drastically changed our lives.
I only have two weeks left with my students. I'm so sad. I get so attached to the people in my life. I kinda want to write them all little notes to give to them on our last day together - but that's over 150 personal notes to write - and that is overwhelming. But that's me, that's what I do, that's how I think and feel, and when I think about saying bye, I feel my throat tighten and I cannot breath.
There will come a time when you believe everything is finished. That will be the beginning. -Louis L'Amour