Roller. Coaster. Ride.
I work on homework all the time. By that I mean that last Wednesday around 5 pm I started on homework for this week and Tuesday I was in tears because I looked at all I still had to finish and didn't see a possibility to complete it. Somebody out there must have said a prayer or two because I got the rest of my 10 things done that evening, and even got to bed before 2 am.
Somehow I have managed to ward off getting sick *knock on wood* and staying at least partially in my right mind. I haven't really been that pleasant to be around, but I've been trying harder! I'm really moody these days and little things set me off. Despite how busy and crazy life is I've been thinking about the future, wondering where God'll lead me, and who I'll disappoint in that transition. I've made a little sappy mix of some of the music we listened to Senior year; good ole Damien Rice, the Weepies, Joshua Radin, Brandi Carlile, Regina Spektor, Rosie Thomas, Brooke Fraser. It's been good for my heart.
No amount of coffee, no amount of crying
No amount of whiskey, no amount of wine
No, nothing else will do
I've gotta have you, I've gotta have you.
I'm left wondering what I need to survive these days. I feel like I've gotten by for so long "without" that I no longer remember what I "need." I've managed to make it through some pretty crappy stages without the people I didn't think I could survive without; my mom, Janelle, Alicia, Bethany, Martha... I'm a mess, but I'm still here, and I wonder if since I've gotten this far, what else could I face on my own? in a new town? in a new state? on a new coast? in a new country? The possibilities are endless.